ahhhh

i am so le tired it aint no joke. i have most of the cleaning done. left to do is the laundry, the kitchen (few dishes, counters, floor), my room-maybe, probs not...

i am just now sitting down. i knew this could be dangerous. my ass feels so good in this chair. so good in fact that i fear i do not want to get up, but i must. that laundry aint going to launder itself. it's still relatively early considering i stayed up last night until 1am watching The L Word and that before that i had accomplished nothing with my after-work hours. it does feel early, but i shouldn't get cocky. before i know it it'll be one and i will be even more pooped. but it's all worth it yo cuz tomorrow Fatty gets here...yay!!!

okay, still have to finish the rest of this bullshit and put together my lunch. i was so busy with cleaning that i didn't really eat dinner. i am in the process now of eating some blueberries. go fiber and hopefully antioxidants.

i'm wishing there was a laundry fairy right about now...i have all these sheets and blankets to wash...ughhh. man it feels good to complain a little bit..sometimes a lot a bit..that makes no sense. this is why people need sleep.

i have not turned on the tv today. what an accomplishment. i seriously started cleaning right when i got home. that's first. i think i spent about 1.5 hours cleaning the restroom...that shit is CLEAN. i think that's the most important room to have clean when guest are coming. i hate going to other peoples houses and using a funky bathroom. i don't like seeing hairs, be them pubes or head hair...whatever, it's all not cool. the end

i'm listening to a Townes Van Zandt record right now. it's just been a day of records. i think i need some more Peter Paul & Mary...i love their music. anywho, now i'm just rambling as a form of procrastination....

time to get back to the grind...oh joy. as consolation i can think of the hot springs that await us on saturday.

THIS REMINDS ME OF JOBIM

what a good night that was. the night of bossa nova with jobim's music at the hollywood bowl. los angeles i miss you terribly. how are you doing? both the music and the subject matter take me back. i've not been to Trader Joe's here in the burque yet, but back in cali i used to hit that place up quite often. anywho...here it is.



original song medley by A.C. Jobim


that night of jobim at the bowl i remember being head over heels for the dude that went with fatty and i. i remember looking up at the moon and he was looking too. for some reason i was hoping that meant something. it didn't.

flustered

"when i saw the cities burning
i new that i was learning
that i aint marching anymore....
call it peace or call it reason
call it love or call it treason
but i aint marching anymore"

i'm in love with music with meaning. anti-war protest songs and folk music make me happy. it's good to look back to see where we are now. where are we now?



i hope the people here are ready to direct their energy to make positive change.





i heart arlo


and richard havens' voice rules

hells yes

so in the beginning i had heard of this Santogold character but i never looked into it. i was being very close-minded by not wanting to explore all this new music. i guess i was beginning to feel old...but anywho now i'm hoping i'm the highest bidder on this Santigold LP...for reals yo. i want it on vinyl...i can't just head down to Amoeba records and buy it because they're not out here. what a bummer...

heaven is a truck

i'm listening to Pavement. it's always nice to come back to them. there's something about them that makes me love them so. the music seems perfect for windy days. perfect for care-free frollicking. perfect for dreaming. anywho, it's old news that i totes have a boner for Stephen Malkmus.

i'm drinking some Yogi brand green tea, and according to the tea-bag tag, "Mental happiness is total relaxation." I agree. the first thing i recalled after reading this was the sensation i felt when i got in the hammock and listened to the river and looked at the clouds at the hot springs a week ago or so. what's even better is that i'll be returning there this weekend with fatty.

i'm so lucky to be able to go to the hot springs and relax. comparatively speaking my life is pretty good. i have everthing i need and then some. i am grateful for what i do have but i'm still missing out on the giving back part. it's really hard for me to do things selflessly as opposed to going in with a "what's in it for me" attitude. anywho, i thought, why not try to volunteer at the animal shelter? but i only say this because of the fine-ass mofo who works there. so maybe i shouldn't look into this. maybe i should focus on humans. i'm sure one day i'll find what i think i'm looking for.

okay it's time to work. i have tons of stuff to do....

DONDE ESTA MI DINERO?

good question. where is my income tax return money? well now i know it will be on it's way once i sign some letter saying, "hey foolios, please send me my money. i am broke-ish."

i was looking up tickets to cali for the friends wedding and if i buy early they probs won't be too much...tops 250. i don't know what kind of plans my friends want to make or what but dario wants me to go early and hang out. sound like fun yo. maybe. anywho, these blasted cramps are finally going away.

i brought naked nuggets for lunch with some veggies. the nuggets are pretty good. they're like adult nuggets i guess. they don't have that outside breading so they're a bit healthier...mmmmm...protein...mmm...meat. fast forward one hour to lunch please. i'm going to haul ass to get home to check on my litle Peppola.

ay dios mio

jajajajaja

Jan Terri-Losing You

martes

Apr 13 2009 3:55 PM

"i think i found another one. this time she has a brain!!! and a job and is independent as hell. its nice not having to pay for everything and have a women buy u a beer and a shot to take advantage of u."

new guy's words about me to one of his friends. this was in the beginning. now i have to think things through. he texted me last night to hang out and drink with him and his friend. i wanted to but i just got my dog back and i have to watch her and i also work super early. i guess our schedules just don't match up. it's the beginning of the week i can't be going out and staying up late. it's hard enough for me to wake up as is....but part of me does feel that if i don't do something more he'll lose interest. i mean, if he does, that's cool, but i kinda wanted to have some friends, you know?

anywho, it's tuesday...i'm still sleepy and now i'm hungry but i have to drink my tea before i can eat.

YAY

halway through the day and i'm finally awake. i was debating what to do to fill the time and while work is always an option i opted for something more exciting, or productive for me. what can i do here at work that will help me save time out there? i know, how about plan this saturday's trip with fatty? sounds good.
1. Giggling Springs (gigglingsprings.com)


the pool is now paved and it really does look nicer than this picture i found. there's a hammock by the river...glorious.

2. Tent Rocks National Monument




3. home...by now we must be tired.

So i looked up the driving directions now i just need to print them. what worries me is the chance of missing my turn. i've never driven that far north and i have no clue what the road is like or if anything has large street signs. i guess i'll hope for the best and if i miss my turn i could keep going on the four north then back down through santa fe...but i'd rather not.

monday

mondays always suck, unless you have them off. three day weekends. the most coveted of weekends. so few are far between they are.

anywhozle, my little Peppers comes home today a new spayed woman. i hope she's okay. i don't know what time they're going to do the procedure but i get to pick her up at 5pm. i cleaned just for her and because that shit was getting annoying. well...that's my monday. i'm looking forward to having my doggy at home and watching Gossip Girl..xoxo.

i have some work to do here but i just want to sleep. last night's sleep seemed so glorious. at first it was kind of a pain because of these cramps from hell but i was prepared. after finally picking up, i made myself chammomile tea and got ready for bed. i also had a heating pad, some razzle and a pain killer. i drifted off nicely to sleep. i woke up on time as well. i want to do that again. the whole sleep thing. okay the end. time to work and wake up.

PHUC

all i want to do is sleep but i have therapy after work...then i told my neighbors i'd visit with them and drink tea. i'm just glad it's friday....i can rest somewhat tomorrow in between cleaning and visiting peppers. i really wish they would've let me bring her home then take her back....i can take better care of her. do they think i won't take her back? whatevs...fuckin' rules. i need the paper shredder hardcore so that instead of putting all my papers in a new bag i can just shred what i don't need. i need to organize my life. just thinking about it makes me tired. i'm looking forward to spewing words to my therapist while under the influence of razzle. today i just may really take a nap on her couch. A $16.00 nap....fuck

on a positive note, gossip girl season 1 dics 4 and 5 and The Wrestler are all waiting for me in the mail box...

update update update: i've been burglared

so first things first...the ear issue is gone, my hearing has gone back to normal. the Crips and Bloods movie was really good. it really makes you think about what kind of fucked up shit we've done to ourselves because the conditions have been there building up.
anywho, i get home after the movie to discover that the house had been broken into. there was shit everywhere. they ended up taking my laptop and the computer backback. good thing they didn't open all the drawers...i still have my camera. i think they also took my 30 dollar mp3 player. i dont' really care about that. i will miss the pics and music and documents and photoshop that were on my laptop. shit happens. four other houses in that area were also hit. yay, i am now part of another statistic. that shit is useful.
i thought those mofos had taken my little Peppers as well but after asking neighbors, i found that animal control had come to pick up another dog and had taken Peppers as well. I tried to go for her today but she has to stay until monday to be spayed, tagged and all this other jazz. she looked so sad in that little filthy compartment. i cleaned up her poop and pee and they let me play with her. i gave her some treats. i miss her. she must be freaking out thinking why is my mother leaving me. i'm going to visit her tomorrow morning so hopefully she won't hate me in the end.
it's been a pretty hectic but i'm hoping that things will settle down again. i have so much to clean and put away. i'm def not looking forward to doing this, but i can't leave it looking like i'm squatting there.
je suis le tired. i was up until like 5am with the guy and his friend. we got ridic. the end. time to do some work....or just zone out

i love my car

for some reason i just thought of this Belle & Sebastian song....anywhozits, here's the trailer for the film i will be seeing today.



got scrilla from the bank. i'm set. today is thursday. fuck yeah. one more day then the weekend again. these days just fly by.

back on track

except for this ear problem that is new, everything is starting to be good again. today i'm officially beginning to track my food, again. i'm going to go watch a movie about Crips and Bloods and i'm going to hang out with the new guy. we myspace messaged each other and i think we're good now. i can't be in no realtionship, but i can always hang out.

i do love working here...my coworkers kill me. just a minute ago they were talking about hotdogs. one of them had them last night for dinner. he had the long and skinny kind...not the "short and fat kind" my boss chimed in. then one of them kept saying 'footlong' and i try to ignore it...but they're waiting for my response...oh guys, the only reason i can't stand this talk is because i haven't had a good hot dog in such a long time...i dont' want to hear this. other than that...talk away.

woot woot...less than an hour until lunchtime...today i'm going over to the bank to get some scrillah for the movie and for therapy tomorrow....then i'll probs just drive around and razzle...eat my sandwich..maybe doodle. the end.

be positive.

oye pues

communicating through myspace
changing a status
without words
implied...our ties
which are?

no great loss
but should work on my ppl skills
need friends hardcore

where does one draw the line
how does one bring up something touchy
like i'm just not that into you
but want to be friends?
is this possible?

of course it's possible
think back to when it was done to you
several times

it never went well
my boner was too hard
metaphorically of course

in the event of emergency evacuation
make sure to delete delete delete

i am le confused

this lady here is confused...and she's sporting somewhat of a devilock...it's in the baby stage...

doodle

colored pencils are fun....i need to put something in the background....i'm thinking maybe just a color gradient.

aw yessss

i just took the most awesome crap. it ruled. the end. tmi. the end.

i need to start getting ready for my family's return. they're getting here at the beginning of May so my days of complete freedom are numbered. i need to get back on track with my food and exercise. i can't let one week of going a little cray-cray ruin all my efforts thus far. my mood is slowly changing. i find myself wanting to do more creative things so i need to work hard at combating laziness.

today will be a work-filled day. yesterday was a do-hardly-anything-day. today i pay.

DUDE

i'm blown

i'm blown away by how everything seems so different now for some reason. my friends have now gone but i wish they were still here. i think it's all over with the new guy. i should've told him earlier that i wasn't into him romantically. it may be too late now to try to be friends. i am a bitch...anywho, i feel like shit, how are you doing?

rude awakening

that's what i got when i checked my bank account this morning. good thing tomorrow is pay day or else i'd be fucked...for reals. anywho, my friends are here...yay!!! i'm tired but not hungover. the food last night was off the chain. i will def make jamaican jerk chicken again. it was all good. my friend took pics so i will have to get them.

the end. i'm at work...i'd rather be in bed.

I need to watch this show

Yo Gabba Gabba...i was hooked from the first. i like kids' shows...and teen movies.

hump day is not the same

the thrill is gone...

man i need to pep the fuck up, you know? okay so you're not getting any...and? this is pretty standard...still annoying though.

ugg

fts

eff. that. shit.

why do i sit here with the female equivalent of blue-balls? what a difference a night makes. i don't know if i could do this.

mirah sighting

i totes forgot to mention seeing mirah on saturday night as the Launchpad. it was pretty rad...pretty spur of the moment.

i got her new lp (a)spera...now i just have to find time to listen to it. mayhaps today when i'm cleaning my ass off.

be progressive

be be progressive...and tell your mother you may have a boyfriend? not sure if this is the way to go. then her brain will get to churning and soon i'm going to get the 3rd degree.

i miss Fischerspooner.

i need to buy their record man.

my eyes are burning hardcore right now. i went to sleep very late...1:15ish am...without getting anything ready for today. i have 2 massive hickey's and 1 smallish one. now i have to wear this scarf all day and have my hair towards the front. i would say i feel like i'm in high school, but this never happened then.

looking forward to

here is a list of cheesy things i'd like to do with the boy. lets see what i can get done.

1. picnic in the park: comfy blankets, good food, razzle, reading out loud...oh my goodness i'm loving this cheese. listening to the birds...

2. semi-fancy night out...good food, crude jokes

3. hiking and razzling

4. listen to records and do crafty shit...

okay these aren't too bad...the end.

))<>((

so here i sit waiting for lunchtime. i feel somewhat giddy. it may have to do with the boy i met...probs. i just keep thinking about it buy i'm trying not to. i need to focus...focus rachel. okay, that didn't work.

hey i get to talk to fatty at lunch today. that's exciting news. her job is tearing us apart man...j/k.

i wonder if the boy remembered about burning me the new DCFC?

i love love love love him

i love this little kid. nephews rule. i can't wait for them to get back then i can play with him. look how cute he looks here at grandpa's work. i love pictures of kids with large animals.



the end...

black butter

Is it over yet?

I need this day to be over A.S.A.P. I'm tired, hungry and i just want to sleep. I'd actually like to just be at home doing more things (finishing cleaning). I want to watch my movie and razzle...or just sit and do nothing. These past two days i've not gotten enough sleep because I met some dude and we hung out. He's pretty chill, creative, open-minded...good on paper. We watched Something Wicked This Way Comes, last night and at one point he gets up and is moving around in the kitchen. When he comes back he gives me a plate of chopped fruit which is awesome because i can eat fruit. Anywho, i thought it was really nice, but i oscillate between whether or not anything will happen. He seems confident and stuff but he hasn't made a move...what up with that? It's probs a good thing...the more time that passes. I got to meet one of his friends last night. He seems interesting. Anywho, the end. I told him i couldn't hang out today because of Good Friday. I think he may have laughed. Do i need to find someone that understands my level of religious involvement and my mixed feelings/guilt associated with it? I probably do. But all i ask the universe is that when that happens, would it hurt to throw me a bone? A big juicy, meaty, hot, hotness of a bone...you know...a bone i'd want to bone?

Regardless of what goes down i'd really like to be his friend because it really is nice hanging out. Or having someone semi-compatibale to hang out with.

Fuck...2 hours and 10 bloody minutes until i can go to lunch. I need to go to the bank...my therapist needs her 20 dollars. I guess i'll tell her about my mild depression over my birthday weekend and how drinking is horrible and about this dude...yup, my life is getting structured and boring/predictable. I need some more craziness, but am i too old already? No, i'm just lazy right now.

Record man said the album Real Emotional Trash by Steven Malkmus and the Jicks would be in on Friday. I can't remember if it's today or last week. I'm going to give him a call....maybe i can swing by on my lunch break.

okay...time to do more data entry, essentially....why??????

countdown to partytown: 5 days!!!!!!!!

It's friday...keep it gangster

more c-walkin'



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LWGugGG4EBY
c-walking tutorial. this looks like a good workout. it also looks like a modified irish jig, whereas they kick their legs up and back, the c-walk shuffles on the ground...this ones about hardly lifting the feet. i wonder if anyone's ever connected these two dances...anywho...the end...

please do your thang..

simmer down now

that was a good madtv sketch/catchphrase thingy...anywho, yeah i need to simmer down now because i'm getting a little too into my music right now. i'm listening to Sultans of Swing by Dire Straits...this song is jamming. so yeah, mixing a jamming song with some razzle-dazzle = me chair-dancing at work. i just want to dance dance dance...speaking of dance dance dance, i need to read that Murakami book.

okay the end...it' time to eat my sandwich
and work.

i ate this for b-fast.
Kashi Vive +
Blueberries +
Vanilla Soymilk =
Yum



I'm developing a new fondness for the word yum. In Robbins' book "Still Life With A Woodpecker," Bernard Wrangle, the main character, has but two mantras in life. Yum and Yuk. i think they're fitting.

this sits well

BAD ASS BITCHES

I decided to watch Grindhouse: Death Proof at work because i saw that it's now on netflix's Watch Now. I love love love this movie. Needless to say i would like to one day be a bad ass bitch.

the end y'all

WHODINI...

I love these songs by Whodini, like for reals...

Friends...i need them...

I wish those white shorts would come out...

yum...to the lead singer's voice

this is the band whose music is featured in the Fractal show.

http://www.fractalfoundation.org

blah

so it's my birthday. i'm 26, how not exciting. i'm not doing jack crack...

i drank two miller lites last night and i woke up feeling a little weird. maybe i should drink never again. maybe i'm being dramatic. i dont' know. anywho, for my birthday wish, i wish i had a reasonably looking guy to play with...he must have an awesome beard. yes...i want to feel a beard. well, it's best not to think of these things. time to do shit...bye y'all.

ps. totes not as excited as i thought it would be. still just another saturday and i have shit loads of stuff to do/clean.

yum indeed...today is the day of yum

what an odd word...lunch. anywho, i'm eating my lunch right now and i have to take a break because the tip of my tongue is on fire. I made ceviche and i put in too many chili flakes. It's super off-the-chain though.

18 large shrimp raw, butterflied and deveined
enough lemon juice to cover the shrimp with (i used a glass measuring cup thingy)
1 avocado
2 medium tomatoes
1/4 onion
pinch of oregano
pinch of dill
fresh pepper
chili flakes
salt

Place prepared shrimp in the lemon juice. Cover and put in refrigerator. Let cook for minimum of 3 hours...best to leave overnight.

In a med. bowl combine the chopped avocado, onion, tomatoes and spices. Squeeze juice of 1/2 lemon in. Mix and cover. Store in Fridge until shrimp are ready.

When shrimp are cooked thouroughly, add them to the veggie bowl. You can add some of the lemon juice. Mix and enjoy.

These are usually eaten with tostadas and other recipes have cilantro...but this is what i had a home. Like i said it turned out awesome, less chili next time. I'm eating mine with cucumber rounds.


Todays walk in the park was awesome. I'm improving on my time and it's getting easier. The first time around is the getting warmed up round...the second time around is the my legs are beginning to feel it round, and the last time around is the this feels good round and i wish i had more time to go four times around instead of three. Anywho, it was super windy so there weren't that many people there. In conclusion, it ruled. The trees were swaying all crazy like, my earring were making hella noise, and the sun was vibrant behind the few clouds. the end...can you tell i really enjoy this?

What else is new? no word on the guy-i'm-supposed-to-meet-front yet. mabye this is for the best. i always get carried away before i even see anyone. i need to work on this. i put on make-up for this? yes, yes i did.

Yum-update

so the cold hard facts are in, and what i've discovered is that if i follow the Tiramisu recipe as is, each serving will range between 450 and 670 cal...i can't remember how much fat but it's up there, somewhere between 35-45g. Crazy. So i'm going to make a healthier version. It won't be as fun, but then again i won't wake up on sunday 1-2 pounds heavier, cuz you know i wouldn't be able to resist eating more of that delicious goodness. I'm just hoping it's still good. It probs will be. I have no recent basis for comparison on the Tiramisu front....

i'm watching Colbert Report at work. I like it better than the Daily Show. Colbert!!!!!je l'aime. I am joining the 1031project. It's on.


I have to pee really badly right now...and i'm doing the sit down pee pee dance...my leg is jangling...okay...brb
i'm back....and i just got off the phone w/the hot customer who's trying to set me up with one of his fitters. He is sending the dude over today. It felt like such a business transaction. I asked it be done after 2pm...how accomodating. So this guy has no clue that homeboy and i have been talking about him. now lets just hope he's an okay to look at guy...even more importantly, lets hope i find something to say to him. But what? Do i reveal the truth...that this was planned. Do i ask him out? This is hard...but we'll see what happens. Now i'm debating whether to walk or not...do i want to be kinda sweaty? No, but i have to work out...
arghhhh.....i don't want to let this stress me out....his name is Jeremiah..i like it.

Yum!

i've decided i'm going to make Tiramisu for my birthday...no cake. This sounds better and since i've cut out the fun/bad foods from my diet i figured b-day is a good reason to bend the rules. I'm really looking forward to this, you've no clue.

Friday is the way to go

oh, my left leg is more sore than my right leg. i forgot my tennis shoes at home. now i have two choices. i can either go home and get them at lunch and not walk during that time, or not go and just walk in my chucks. hopefully they don't fuck up my feet.

i woke up earlier this morning after having dreamed of Steven again. Oh freshman year of college crush, why do you haunt me so. at one point in the dream i was running to keep up with him. how sad, even in dreams they run from me. but i did get to kiss him eventually, in the dream. okay the end. anywho, yes, i woke up earlier to iron my shirt so as to not look like a proff. hobo...i'm just part time right now. i love having time in the mornings because i get to do fun stuff like listen to records. i was really craving The Only Living Boy In New York by Simon and Garfunkel and i got it. i like that song. it makes me feel feelings...woah. this is my last friday as a 25 y/o. part of me is sad, part of me is whatev, que sera sera, you know?

i'm seeing my therapist today. i have to start thinking of what i'm going to say.

the only living boy in new york...aaaahhh...hey.

this is crazy-loco

or cuckoo-bananas...both are acceptable. i just cleaned my glasses and it's as if the curtains have just been drawn back and i can see anew. this is amazing. the colors are so vibrant.

my best quality is my ability to entertain myself with practically nothing. i amaze me.

after today's walk in the park i razzled, of course, but then i came back to work and stretched. it was super awesome. 1.25hours left in my day, even more awesome.

IT'S OFFICIAL

I just finished watching Maid of Honor at work....oh how i do love a totally unrealistic romantic comedy. the stuff dreams are made of.
Dreams...what are they? They happen at night and you can't explain them. I hate it when people are like i followed a dream. REally? should we be following things that do not exist...things that are made up? Sometimes i think dreams keep us prisoners of ourselves...but that's just me.

Anywho...i wonder what i should watch next?

today should be friday

i'm just saying. it should be friday because i have no desire to work whatsoever. but then again, i'd be way more excited if it was friday. i'll give it a few hours. once lunch time rolls around (1pm) i should be in better spirits. I just want to be in bed again.

last night i started watching the movie Los Cronocrimenes (TimeCrimes) and guess what? it's pretty good. i will finish it today. the end for now. i'm making progress on this green skinny scarf. this is fun. i'm knitting and reading again. i'm slowly getting back into it, it being being me. wow....how confusing.

i like this band

i wanted to find the video for "Oh" but it's not longer available. WTF?

oh

oh

oh

This is good though...i need to hear their other stuff...i need to get my hands on their record..i hope they have their stuff on vinyl..

thursday...hells yes

So today i'm not as excited as the blog title may suggest. Our work internet is going super slow...like balls slow (i love how everything is like balls...it's a balls balls world). Anywho, yeah, this thing is super slow and i don't know if i'm going to make it...i don't even know if this is going to post. I can file...but i had my heart set on finishing up the movie i started yesterday (Made of Honor). Hopefully the speed picks up. I wish i knew more about computers..the end y'all. Time to try and see how successfully i can sit here and knit undetected.

BANG BANG BANG

man...whenever this dude comes in here to pick stuff up or whatever, all i can think is, "bang bang bang." it's horrible, i need to work on controlling the bang urges, but he does it to me. don't know why...but, dayyumm...okay, the end.

enough of that....12 more minutes til freedom y'all.

the walk in the park was really nice today. there was hardly anyone there becuase it's super windy...like balls windy. i only went twice around but it was good nonetheless. the wind felt so good. it's picking up even more now...hope my car doesn't move all crazy like on the road...oh, yeah, i also hope a tumbleweed doesn't hit my car. it's like a fucked up video game over here. like frogger, but with tumbleweeds and a shitload of other cars on the road playing simultaneously....
you better watch it.

man now i'm craving some two tone ska. the specials...where did that cd go?

April Fools

I may not have been born today but i have felt like a fool most of my life. Go figure. When i was younger i used to wish i was born today, not three days after, but then by b-day would be even more of a joke. You see my b-day always falls around Easter time. What's the problem with that you say? Well if you're Catholic you know that it's not just one day, Easter. It's Lent then it's Holy Week. There's fasting, not being allowed to do fun things, etc. It never felt right to fully celebrate when just a few days away Jesus would be nailed to the cross. This is what i grew up with. Now that i'm older (and my mom's not home) it doesn't matter as much. But now i have no one to celebrate it with...boo hoo...poor me. It's okay though, i have myself, and i usually treat myself very well. I'm my own sugar-mama...that's the way to go.

I'm going to try to get my bro to play either tennis or bocce w/me this weekend. We'll see how it goes. He always claims to be tired. Hint Hint...that's cuz you need to exercise to have more energy. This doesn't make sense to him.

I can't wait for friday. I get to bitch to my therapist about whatever i want for an hour, then i get to go see the Fractal show. Can't wait for my friends to get here so that we can go OUT out to a bar and order a drank. the end. it's wedenesday. friday's not too far off...

my legs are sore...